not quite ready

to say goodbye. i was feeling the same way when i left paris 5 days ago. i felt like i was losing a part of myself that i had found while in london and paris. i couldnät bear to leave the city or my dear friend. i still feel as though a part of me is still there... "we'll always have paris..." but how long before i see either of you again? what will become of me as i go back home? how /where will i find inspiration in city with a superficial culture that sometimes feel as though it has no depth? this is the first time iäve ever been away from home where i actually do not miss the city. iäve alwazs felt ahhh itäs nice to be back in vancouver or iäm looking forward to seeing the mountains and the trees... instead i feel a bit... resigned. i guess thatäs why iäm furiously blogging my feelings and emotions so i donät forget what iäve learned and felt along the way.